Am I, my problem?

Introduction

We hope that sharing Prinses’ journey with the world will help others struggling like she currently is to seek assistance soon. As a naturally stubborn person she thought for years that she would get it all resolved on her own. Boy was she mistaken. Asking for help is hard, but she had to admit that she could not fix it on her own.

By the time you read our first blog, she will be 41 years old, and we can tell you that it took guts getting started. She figured that speaking up about the issues she is facing on a daily may assist her in her healing journey. Last year she started consciously pursuing personal healing.

The plan is to give a general overview of her life now and elaborate further in upcoming posts.

Carefree childhood

Both of Prinses’ parents had their first child at a young age. By the time they met, and she was conceived, she was considered a new beginning for both.

You could say that her childhood started off as carefree. As far as she knows she had two loving parents and everything that a child needed was provided for.

Years after it all came to an abrupt end. One day she and her younger siblings were a happy family and the next day they weren’t. She has a hard time remembering how old she was exactly when they had to move to another house. She must have thought it was just for a little while, but she can hardly remember anything that happened after.

All she knew was that her new living arrangements were not pleasant. That unpleasantness would continue into adulthood. There was abuse in many forms.

Teenager

The new living arrangements were strict, unpleasant and unfair. She and her siblings were the modern version of Cinderella. We hope this gives you a general idea of the treatment. As the oldest in the bunch, she would be punished for anything her siblings did. As a people pleaser and overall obedient child, being disciplined for something others did was physical as well as mental torture. She does hurry to say that it was not all bad. She has good memories that she will cherish, but the overall experience was horrible. She was active in sports and that was her only distraction from the home situation. You could say that sport was her first addiction, and she appreciated the high it gave. She switched to an average student in middle school, as long as she received passing grades, she was fine. She gradually changed from obedient to rebellious.

During her rebellious phase she started to notice boys and how they would look at her. She was always somewhat of a “tomboy”, kind of skinny and always surrounded by boys but with different intentions. She now had curves and started to notice the “looks”. It started with secretly holding hands and gradually upgrading to a kiss here and there. She had no clue what these feelings were. Prinses’ inexperience would permit her to tolerate unfaithful soothers. She would be the special inexperienced gem on the side while getting they were getting their way with other girls who were sexually active. She moved on when she realized what was happening.

No loss for her because she had not had sex yet. She was not a virgin, since her first sexual encounter happened years before. a chance encounter, remember that the unplanned often leads to the most profound transformations.

The more the merrier!

Curious fish